Happy Halloween everyone! This week-end was so nice! It started off on friday where I was in the haunted house screaming the loudest I could, and banging the lockers so hard! It was fun! Then I changed postions and went into the dark room where nobody could see me, and I stopped screamiong until they walked past and then I screamed really loud and scared them. It was so funny. One person looked back at me and didn't see me but I saw him and it was super hilarious that I was laughing so hard after that. And then one time I screamed and another person creamed back and then I screamesd again and he screamed back. I found that so cute. The group that we were going to host had to do a math test, so they couldn't come. oh well. That night, Daivd's friends came over. It was the first time I met them. They were both maybe 30 yrs old, but they were actuially pretty cute. Anyways, that night was fun. We stayed up and drank a few beers and I went to bed at 1 am. I had to go out the next day so I didn't stay up too long. I loved my costume so much that I showed it off to everyone I saw this weekend. My costume is really scary, and everyone told me so too. Yesturday me and most of my good friends went over to jess' house and we rented 5 movvies. We watched kill bill 2. It was really good. I forget the names of the other movies, but that's just me! i have alzeimers! j/k lol Yesturday was so fun. We stayed up very late watching horror movies, well.. all were horror except for kill bill 2. I can't wait to see the grudge. We might see it next weekend. Today I watched 2 movies at jess' house. "Chipmunks' Christmas" (it was soo cute! aww), and "Not Without My Daughter" (that is a really powerful movie! I almost cried). After that I got changed and put on my costume. There were people coming to the door to trick or treat, so I took charge and gave them candy myself. I find it so cute seeing little kids in their cute little costumes. Then, me and Dai went to Dai's house to trick or treat. We went around and got lotz of candy. One place was weird though. The old man made me and Dai sing for him. He didn't give us candy until they did. Dai sang no problem, but I was shy. I didn't want to sing in front of strangers. BEsides, tehre were 5 old people sitting at the table. I sang "Oh Claire de La Lune". It's a french song that everybody knows. We had a good night. In fact, I find those people around her house really generous. Mostly all of them ave us a bag of candy or a handful of candy. What I found weird though was that there weren't many people at all trick or treating. Seriously, not even 40 in all I don't think, and we were out for two hours. I couldn't believe it. Maybe it was because it was raining and it was a school night, but we went out at 5. It was dark by then as it is day light savings time today. We had to set our clocks back one hour. Well, all in all it was a great weekend!! Bye people! Luv ya's! xx becca  

Oh no, I feel terable about yesturday. Kimberly was upset that Guillaume told her that she was annoying. She got very angry and started to complain to us. I understand how thaey both feel, and I don't like to take sides, but yesturday whgen she told this to me, she called him an asshole. I told her, and Mariano agreed that the reason he finds her annoying is probably because she always talks about him behind his back. She got so mad at me mainly. She said, "I dont understand! He is only mad at me but I'm not the only one who talks about him behind his back." I said, "Well, I don't." And she got so mad at all of us. Anyways, that was the first time I saw her mad. She actually yelled at us, and took off down the hallway. I can't beieve how childish she was. Then, I explained to Guillaume the situation, and me and Steph told him to not worry about it. We told him to come sit with us at lunch. He did. The table seemed differnt without Kim being there. I don't know what it was, but it seemed like everyone there was actually mature for once. But still, I want Kim to sit with us again. I don't know what is going on today, as I didn't go to school. I missed my bus this moring, and the buses only run at certain hours in the day as there is a bus strike going on here. I wrote Kim a long email explaining that I am so sorry for the way I reacted. I stood up for Guillaume, as I know Guillaume is in the right. Poor him. He speaks french and doesn't understand Kim's jokes at all, and everyone laughs at her jokes (which are really funny, but he doesn't understand them because she talks to fast for him). Sometimes Kim laughs and jokes around about him and I get really mad. Somtimes she talks about how much he is so religious but I find it really cute that he isnt afraid to show us who he really is. I like that he is the way he is. It's really nice.

I am very sad about yesturday. My mom had to bring my brothers' cat to the vet because he had a hairball stuck in his throat and he couldn't cough it up, but they demanded about 400$ within the 24 hours, and she knew she couldn't possibly get that amount of money within 24 hours. She ended up having to give them 100$ to put the cat to sleep. When I came home yesturday she explained what had happened, and I cried obviously. I am so sad! Last night I had a dream of him. It was a nice dream. He was healthy and very happy. I miss him so much! Hopefully I'll get over it.

Anyways, I bought some halloween makeup today. I tried it on, and I guess I'm going to dress up as a living dead doll. Maybe. Or maybe I'm just going to dress up like a goth. I don't know. For the doll, I have a short dress, and Black high heels. For the goth, I have a wrap around skirt th at I can use like a cape, black high heels, and a balck skirt adn top. Tomrrow I am going to host a group of kids, and also be in the haunted house scaring people. It's going to be really fun! anyways, bye! xx becca

I'm sad and happy both at the same time. Sad because I really wanted to sing in the coffee house and wasnt able to because I didn't have background music. Sad because it's my last year before I graduate, sad because I might not have the opportunity to sing on stage this year.. but happy that I will be on stage once again as I'm in music theatre class and I will be doing a play in may. Happy because my marks in school are turning out really good.. and I also happy because my friend just burned me a cd and I got to listen to it tonight. In all the only thing I disliked about my day was french class and after school. I was kinda disapointed at what things are turning out to be like..I can't really explain because you wouldn't understand. But, yeah..after school was nice. Time for relaxing. I got home and sat back on the coach and drank a cold beer and popped in my new burnt cd.. and just enjoyed every second of my time just sitting there realaxing and doing nothing much except for listening to the great beat of the music. Different varieties of music. I have songs from Avril Lavinge, P Diddy, Green Day, Blink 182, Eminem, Michelle Branch, and others. There was one song from Avril Lavinge that is really good. I think the lyrics mean alot, and are there to say that you need to find a man who loves you for who you are and not just for sex. I find it so true that some guys just want sex, yes I know because there are guys that I didn't even know that well, and they wanted sex from me and I backed away. I think it is a huge turn off when some guy makes a big move when u hardly even know them. Yeah, I bet it is the same for the guys. I think some guys think it is a major turn off when the girl tries to get them into bed the first night they meet them. Yeah..okay.. well this is the song:

Don't Tell Me by: Avril Lavigne

You held my hand and walked me home, I know
Why you gave me a kiss, it was something like this it made me go oh oh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl?
The one who gives it all away

(**Chorus**)
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you (this time)?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do,(and cry)?
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way

Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants or I'll have to kick your ass
And make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot but I'm really upset
Get out of my head, get off of my bed yeah that's what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl?
The one who throws it all away

(**Chorus**)
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you (this time?)
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do(and cry?)
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way

This guilt trip that you've put me on won't mess me up I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

(**Chorus**)
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you (this time?)
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do (and cry?)
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way

Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway

my mom threw me a surprise party yesturday and invited a whole bucnh of friends. I thought my party was gonna be next week! lol I was soo happy! Oh and I got tons of gifts! my mom,david,and my brother travis went splits and got me a dvd player. Dai,Kim,and Mariano got me a dvd called 50 first dates! I love that movie! Jess got me Rimmel perfume! smellss soo good! And david got me the cd of Evenescence, and he also got me a dvd called Heartbreakers. And Travis bought me an Orlando Bloom poster. Wow, those were great gifts! And my mom is soo nice! I didnt even expect my friends to be there and they were so I was really excited! yay! oh yeah, friday was soo fun! After school we went to the mall, and we hung out and tried pretty prom dresses on. Oh yeah, the person working at Laura Petite was soo rude! She made us stop trying on dresses because she was afraid that we would ruine the dresses. So we left and Kim went over to the lady who was working there and kinda told her off.. asking if she gets paid on commision. The person said no and told kim to change her attitude problem. If teh lady said yes that she was paid on commission then kim would have said that she wasnt doing a pretty good job at it. Kim was soo hilarious. She had an empty bag and she kept pretending that she forgot her bag. A bunch of times she placed her bag on the ground and pretended to check the time. then left the bag there. we were laughing and kept peaking to see if anybody was noticing it. It was so funny. and then one time me and jess are in the store looking at boots and kim says to us "watch this". She had already placed the bag in the centre of the mall..and she went up to the bag, looked around to see if anyone was watching, grabbed the bag, and ran really fast! it was soo hilarious! Ohmigod shes so crazy and funny! Then we left at 9:30 from Mc.Donalds. I went to my brothers apartement, and then later after that we went to the bar! I danced on stage and it was soo fun! i danced with two different guys. People thought I was 18! but i was just turning 17! lol I did look 18 there though.Yeah i was gonna use a fake id, but travs friend wasnt there when we showed up, so i ended up trying to not get caught. It was really easy. My brother started up a little converstaion with the guy working there, asking him if he was so-and-so's cousin (which he was), and since i was right there I got in fast and I acted confident. Oh yeah..I danced on stage shakin my booty! I love dancing! its soo fun!